JINGLE BELL (:

I WANT HOLIDAYS........

hey all :) just some updates, i'm busy with some activities recently, through out my holidays :)

to all who goyang kaki in the house : happy holidays and i really envy you wei ;p
to all pap mates : fighting~
to all whom i dont know who u are : hello [............./////////]
last but not least, to you : season's greetings (:

THE WATER ISSUE. AGAIN.

I’m in a nasty situation again. The water went off WHILE I was having my bath. However, I’m glad that my emotional quotient is getting higher. I feel thankful that I wasn’t in soap bubbles *smirk* 1 more day. And I can be back to my home sweet home. Fighting~

DRUNKEN

Sigh. I’m defeated. Totally defeated. I always want to obey my rule of NO HOPE = NO DISAPPOINTMENT but I’ve failed. I spent my night starring at the ceiling again. I dislike the hostel. I want to go home. I meant I can do so at 2:48 in the morning [or should I say, midnight?] but I don’t want the whole world to start questioning me that am I alright. I can leave here earlier actually yet due to some reasons I decided to stay. I hate the feeling of being ______. I hate the word SORRY. It doesn’t bring any sense despite to prove one has done something wrong. [forgive me for being unable to think normally. Not meant to offence but just expressing some of my random thoughts.] behaving in a cold manner is just another way of protecting self from bitterly disappointment. I HOPE I will never hope for anything. anymore. I miss the drunken red wall.

佛跳墙

just had dinner with grandpa today, and we were discussing the chinese dish ~ 佛跳墙. hahaha guess what, my grandpa told me this story :

佛跳墙 is named after a monk that couldnt stand vegetarian anymore and hence he jumped over the wall of the temple and started cooking fleshes of animals including chicken pig dog snake... [yucks]

i doubted this because my cool granddad likes to 'xian' [hahahaha;p] and i yahoo-ed this :

佛跳墙这道菜，相传源于清道光年间，距今有两百多年历史。此菜以十八种主料、十多种辅料互为融合。
其原料有鸡鸭、猪肚、蹄尖、蹄筋、火腿、鸡鸭肫；有鱼翅、海参、鲍鱼、干贝、鱼高肚；
也有鸽蛋、香菇、笋尖、竹蛏等共三十多种原料与辅料分别加工调制而成。
关于这道菜的创始，说法颇多。
据费孝通先生记，
一说，发明此菜者乃一帮要饭的乞丐。这些乞丐拎着破瓦罐，每天到处要饭，把饭铺里各种残羹剩饭全集在一起。据说有一天，有一位饭铺老板出门，偶然闻到街头有一缕奇香飘来，遁香而发现破瓦罐中剩酒与各种剩菜倒在一起。这位老板因此而得启悟，回店以各种原料杂烩于一瓮，配之以酒，创造了佛跳墙。

二说，福建风俗中有一个规矩叫“试厨”。按这规矩，新婚媳妇第一天上门，第二天回门，第三天须到夫家在大庭广众面前试厨，这是对新媳妇治家本领的测试。相传有一个从小娇惯的女子，不会做菜。出嫁前因此而为即将到来的试厨而发愁。母亲为女儿想尽了办法，最后把家藏之山珍海味都翻找出来，一一配制后用荷叶装成小包，反复叮嘱女儿各种原料的烹制方法。谁知这位新娘到了试厨前一天，慌乱中忘记各种烹调方法。她到了晚上才到厨房，把母亲包好的各种原料一包包解开，堆了一桌无从下手，正在无计可施之际，又听公婆要进厨房。新媳妇怕公婆挑剔，见桌边有个酒坛，匆忙中将所带的原料都装入坛内，须手用包原料的荷叶包住了坛口，又把这酒坛放在了快灭火的灶上。想想明天要试厨，新媳妇生怕自己无法应付，就悄悄溜回了娘家。第二天，宾客都到了，却不见了新媳妇。公婆进厨房，发现灶上有个酒坛，还是热的。刚把盖掀开，就浓香四溢，宾客们闻到香味都齐声叫好，这就成了佛跳墙.

hmmm. there's no exact history of it. therefore believe it or not la :p

KITES

sometimes i'm close to myself.

some secrets that i wish to pour out.
but remain silently deep in the heart.

sometimes i wonder ...

sometimes i wish ...

sometimes i hope ...

yet nothing returns.

i'm missing the kites.

i'm liking the kites.

i wana go to the beach to fly kite.
after exams, perhaps.

i think life is like kites.
soaring freedomly in other's eyes.
bright and shine under the beautiful coats.

however, they are restricted to strings.
without the strings, kites are no longer kites.
freedom, but will never come back, never serve men again.
sounds grieving, but that's the fact.

kites,
stick with the strings before surmounting the extent of tension.
men,
struggling to live in uncountable irritating situations.

and so this is called LIFE.

EXAM ?!??

hahahahahaha [laughing non-stop :D] here's the exam season and we were actually having group study session. BUT ended up ......

MC D suksuk Vs KFC yehyeh ;p

look beyond. we were actually supposed to study the slides behind. however the emoticons [the yayahu gang.ha :D] that duno where yc got made us all went crazy of laughing. its extremely cute ;p

see i know them both. discussing some franchising matter perhaps. [omg im getting lamer haha] bad peer influences. or better sense of humour instead?

READ THIS :)

外表：我没事，我真的没事。放心啦！。。。。哈。。哈。。。。谢啦！
内心：外表啊外表啊，为什么这几年你都变了，明明不开心，但为什么终是在众人面前要假装没 事呢？
外表：哪里有。。你想太多啦！（沉静。。）
内心：以前，你不是整天都跟我玩吗？我们不是青梅竹马吗？只要我不开心，你都会不开心！为什么现在的你与我的距离越来越远啊？我开始不了解你了，我不懂你在想什么。。明明我不开心，但是你却整天都没事般的，我好讨厌你！
外表：我。。。我。。。我不想的，但是长大了，不可以再好像以前这样无忧无虑，有太多决定我们需要作选择，你看见开心的我，其实只不过在逃避现实。。我懦弱，不想别人看到我的懦弱，只好在别人面前假装坚强。。。。。我。。。我。。。
内心：不要再说了。。我明白。。
外表：（眼红了）我好讨厌这样的我，其实我也不想为什么我会变成这样的。。。
内心：（哭了）不要再说了。。
外表：（大声哭了）我不懂要怎样做，我很辛苦。。。
内心：我求你不要再说了。。。我真的明白。。
外表：其实我每天都不开心，但却要好像没事般的，我。。。（流泪了）
内心：（抱着外表）我爱你。。。就算全世界抛弃你，你都还有我。。。下次我不开心时，你就好像以前我们小时候这样，我哭，你陪我一起哭；我笑，你陪我一起笑。。。我永远不会离开你。外表：。。。。。我真的可以吗？
内心：可以，没事的。。哭吧，现在的你大声哭吧，把自己一直忍着的眼泪流出来吧！

人，不应该是孤独的相信自己，回归真我也许哭不一定能解决问题，但至少你可以发泄你内心的不满与哀伤，
找个角落，想哭，就哭出来吧。。。
哭了，就去睡吧。。
醒了，面对现实
不要再逃避了
不要再钻牛角尖了
我和你都是平凡人
不要想太多
因为其实你比世界上许多人都幸福
其实有时候事情并非你想的那么复杂偶尔静静坐下来问自己：是我想太多了吗？难道就真的没有其他选择吗？
不要过于执着有时候想要得到的~并非是最好失去的~也并非等于你一走到人生末端
你我才走了20年的路
今后还有漫长的路等着我们去发掘
不开心的，当作是磨练吧！有时候想想，人生如果真的只有一世顺顺利利这样你的人生会精彩吗？
有时候，you can only feel the "happiness",ONLY AND ONLY IF ,you had felt the "sadness"
选择题，并非只是拥有AB还有C 和 D如果四个都不能解决，那么就举手吧！
找一个你相信的人，他也许是你的家人，也许是你的朋友，跟他说你真的不会做
我相信他不责怪你
因为你不是圣人
不是天生就会解决任何问题
偶尔，你也需要别人的关怀也许，我比你幸运因为我不是一个人孤身作战我的身边一直都有两个好朋友一直在支持我
所以开心就好知足常乐放开自己你一定可以。。。